Tonight will end a long stressful year for me. 2017 was a harsh lesson that I wasn’t prepared for. The lessons I’ve learned have made me a stronger person. I hope that 2018 brings peace and relaxation to my life.
Things I Hope for in 2018:
Much of the year was spent catching up and fixing previous mistakes. I hope for peace and relaxation in my life. I want to enjoy my friends and family.
I have always had the love, support of my family and friends. I am very thankful for that. I hope in 2018 to continue to receive the unconditional love they have given me.
I hope to become financially and emotionally success. I do want to be successful at my job, I also want to be successful in my relationships.
When the clock strikes 12, I’ll close my eyes and hope for new opportunities…
So it has been two weeks since I’ve posted. Sorry!
I refuse to make excuses. In my absence, I am preparing for the Fair.
The Fair allowed us to sell homemade goods to our local community.
I am selling small canvases with quirky sayings.
This is my first time selling my own work. I tried to think about
what people would buy. What is something they would love to
gift to their family? I had a couple of stock painting ideas like
quotes, bright vibrate colors etc.
What I enjoyed most about the Fair was preparing my
merchandise. I never painted before and I really enjoyed
it. I would watch YouTube for a few minutes and then I
jump up and start painting. I was like “Someone would love this!”
The outcome of the Fair wasn’t great. I sold 3 of the 6 paintings I made.
I’ll post them on my Etsy, and get a little painting business
started. What do you guys think? If you have experience with
Etsy, give me some tips!
Monday: I imagine Monday as
a Catholic School Teacher. She wears
thick-rimmed glasses and has a pinched face.
She comes behind me and smacks me on
my hand as a daze off.
Tuesday: Is the nice-ish Teacher. You like her
but she’s still has a no nonsense attitude.
At the end of the year, she lets you watch
a G-rated movie.
Wednesday: Is the PE teacher some
people like him, some don’t.
Thursday: Is the art teacher. My favorite
class. She’s calm cool and collected because
there’s only one day until Friday.
Friday: Is the Teacher that doesn’t show up
or alert the school. The class is just there
without supervision. So the principal puts on a movie
If there’s one recurring lesson in my life, it’s to take the time to do the work. My personality, my attitude, heck, my sign is to jump from project to project. I’m a Sagittarius by the way. I find it difficult to see things through. The projects I start are great. They just need a little time and care. Time is one thing I feel like I don’t have. My mission is to live life to the fullest and sometimes things get done half-heartedly.
It’s difficult for me to hash out the details and nothing makes me feel more trapped then planning. I want to go, go, go when it’s really time to plan. From 2014-2017 Saturn has been in Sagittarius and it has been hell. I don’t know how many of my plans just didn’t work out or totally self-destructed. I read my horoscope and it says, ‘life may feel like you’re driving with the handbrake on.’ It SURE does.
There’s nothing I hate more than planning. Over these last few years I have become so paranoid I’m afraid to do anything because I don’t know if it’ll work. But the lesson for me in my life is to take time and do the work. See it through to the end. Practice until you can’t get it wrong. This year and next year I’ll see it through to the end.
I recently read an article by Valarie Stephens, self-proclaimed introvert. In her article, she described herself as an introvert that happened to be black, and that is how I would describe myself. I am an introvert that is black. Often times I feel like being a black female overshadows my actual personality. It’s shallow that people cannot look past my skin, and get to know ME.
Black women have the worst stereotypes out of any race. We are over-sexualized in music videos or dismissed as loud mouth baby mama. There is no in between. It saddens me that people find me strange or unique for acting the way I do. I know for a fact there are many black and minority women out there like me. We like coffee, Kawaii things, pop music and being alone.
I hope this doesn’t get dusted under the rug. If it does I want to say, I here weird and never going to change.
I woke up from a good 8-hours of sleep and I recalled the strangest detail from my dream. I am a person that believes dreams can be interpreted and hold meaning, so this dream was strange. I hate it when you can’t remember the entire dream. It would help put it into context but…what can you do.
In the dream, I was looking down and saw a green snake. It wasn’t a huge snake. It was a small lime green color and was moving in a circle. I watched the snake move round and round until a bigger green snake came behind it and devoured it! I was shocked but I wasn’t scared. I woke up not knowing what this meant.
While on my way to work I Googled “Dream meaning snake, eating another snake.” I found a couple threads here and there but nothing really made sense. A Reddit thread I found was kind of interesting;
“Actually, in my experience, the ouroboros is a good sign. It’s a symbol of personal transformation. What it means is the old you is used to create a new you.”–RadOwl
Ouroboros is from Egyptian Mythology. He represents an infinite cycle of recreation and destruction.
I didn’t completely trust his explanation.
My culture has taught me that snakes are bad. Snakes should be avoided at all costs no matter how harmless they look. As a child, I grew up next to the woods and my parents were cautious when we played outside.
So I searched again, with my FAVORITE source Dreammoods. Dreammoods said;
To dream that a snake is eating another snake represents your drive and determination to succeed at whatever cost.
To me, this is the same thing RadOwl said. There is something changing in my life. I am growing and changing as well.
Summer is over and now we are into the first week of Fall. Fall is my favorite season, the autumn leaves the hot cocoa, mittens and cinnamon candles. This year has brought new and talented artist. Below I have listed artist I’ve added to my playlist.
Billie Ellish, 15-year-old Los Angles native released a killer album this year.The albums name is Don’t Smile at Me. The title perfectly sums up her playful mischievous attitude.My favorite songs on the album are Bellyache and watch.
Next is Ruth B. A former Viner, she posted short videos of her singing. I fell in love with Ruth’s song of superficial love. The song’s name is actually Superficial Love.
Baby if you want me, then you better need me
. ‘Cause I’m so done, not being your number one
The final talented lady is Halsey. Halsey has a bad girl new york swag. I loved her release of Bad At Love. She goes through her relationships and why they didn’t work out. It’s not her fault she’s bad at love and she’s not going to pretend you’re the one.
It wasn’t long ago that I took an in depth personality test. It’s nothing like the Myers Briggs
test but a career guidance test. The test was 50 questions long and painful! It took me longer because I kept choosing ‘indifferent’ response and it couldn’t score it. I went back and weighted my opinions a bit. After that, I got my results.
Creator, interested in image and self-expression and artistic experience. Creators enjoy drama, fine arts, music and creative writing. They like to work with visual elements such as forms, colors and patterns.
I’ve always been creative. My peers looked to me artistic ideas. I don’t mind being a muse. As I got older I saw how hard it was for some people to make a living. An artist is often depicted as a loner in a studio painting in the dark and eating soup out of a can.
I did not want that life. I didn’t want to struggle. So I decided to stop drawing, and pursue a career in management. I look back on it and I’m saddened because it was then I decided money was more important then my happiness. I have picked up drawing again and still love it. My advice to anyone reading this at the thresh hold. Life is a struggle don’t let money decide for you.
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Every morning at 11:11 I close my eyes and make a wish…
I wish I was taller, skinnier like a VS model
I wish I could eat whatever I want and look like a VS model
I wish for a huge closet full of clothes I like (Madewell,Chelsea and Violet etc.)
I wish lots of great shoes
I’d wish for the best in electronics
I’d wish for luxurious vacations
I’d wish for a limitless gift cards to Target
I wish for celebrity boyfriends (Ryan Gosling, The Rock, and Bob Morley)
I’d wish for art/craft supplies
I wish for a million dollars
Then I open my eyes and it’s 11:12