Day 22. How I Have Changed

I have changed a lot over the last couple of years. Some of the major lessons I learned were painful. I cut off people. I’ve been alone many nights but in the end I learned to speak my truth. I learned to stand up for myself. Even when I was standing by myself. It was hard for me. My guides (spirit guides) know I have complained along the way. I need to mention that Saturn was in my sign too. Agghh. So my advice to you if you’re on a spiritual journey or going through hard times is it all happens for a reason. A plant doesn’t strain to grown and neither do you.



Day 8. Most Satisfying Moment in My Life

10B220D3-7BB6-4D48-9796-B01186BEB84FMy life has been filled with its ups and downs. Fortunate for me I’m surrounded by good people that love and protect me. I was doing a guided meditation yesterday when the speaker asked us to reflect on the moments in our life, good and bad. Tears rolled down my face as I meditated.


The obstacles I had to overcome, the disappointments, my parents letting me down, and at the end of it all I’m here. I’m still here pushing on. I couldn’t begin to tell you how many times I’ve been in a dark place thinking there’s no way I can continue. But I pushed on. I cried, I screamed, I’ve lied in bed all day. And maybe it’s apart of the “process.”


The most satisfying moment of my life is here, right now. Because I’m here right now bruised, yet unwavering in my life’s mission.


Comments! Please! What is the most satisfying moment in your life?

People Projecting Their Self Limiting Beliefs On Me

I would like to apologize first for the long title. This title came to me when I was reflecting this morning. The reason I was reflecting was my energy has been off. I feel negative, gross and dragged down. One of these reasons could be my job. I have been working nonstop and sometimes not with the best people. The energy they project on me is sometimes negative.

If you ever meet me I’m a happy, bubbly person. People ask me all the time “how are you so cheerful?” It’s easier to be cheerful than you think. I chose to be happy. Everything is so much more difficult when you’re in a bad mood. Most days I’m ‘comme ci  comme ca,’ but when I feel something eating at me I go into investigative mode. meditation-1384758_960_720

I decided to write down everything that was bothering me. After I write down all my fears, feelings and emotions I reread it and put it away. I have to do this every week otherwise my feeling would eat at me.

The people I interact with let these emotions manifest in their everyday lives. When I meet them it like “Whoa! Don’t bring that energy here buddy. My space is sacred!” I’m very empathic and can feel people’s emotions.

I don’t have a solution for eliminating these negative people. The only advice I can give is to keep yourself full. Keep your space sacred and distance yourself from them.

If There’s One Recurring Lesson in My Life it’s Definitely …


If there’s one recurring lesson in my life, it’s to take the time to do the work. My personality, my attitude, heck, my sign is to jump from project to project. I’m a Sagittarius by the way. I find it difficult to see things through. The projects I start are great. They just need a little time and care.  Time is one thing I feel like I don’t have. My mission is to live life to the fullest and sometimes things get done half-heartedly.

It’s difficult for me to hash out the details and nothing makes me feel more trapped then planning. I want to go, go, go when it’s really time to plan. From 2014-2017 Saturn has been in Sagittarius and it has been hell. I don’t know how many of my plans just didn’t work out or totally self-destructed. I read my horoscope and it says, ‘life may feel like you’re driving with the handbrake on.’ It SURE does.

There’s nothing I hate more than planning. Over these last few years I have become so paranoid I’m afraid to do anything because I don’t know if it’ll work. But the lesson for me in my life is to take time and do the work. See it through to the end. Practice until you can’t get it wrong. This year and next year I’ll see it through to the end.

I’ve Been Thinking About This For a While Now…

Hey guys,

I’ve been thinking about this for a while now. I’ve been thinking about where


I am and where I want to be. The things that caused me to change and mature.

I had a dream a couple nights ago of my wedding. I was dressed in white and we had

a giraffe in the church. The giraffe was trying to escape and I tried to catch it.

The giraffe broke free and ran out of the room. Then I woke up. Dreams are weird.

But when I interpret the dream this is what I found.


A giraffe represents welfare, happiness, the truth and possible dangers.

A wedding represents the merging of masculine and feminine.

A giraffe running away is avoidance of the truth.


There are many ways to interpret this dream but I see it as me needing to be more masculine. I needed to become more assertive in what I wanted.I’ve needed to become clearer on what I needed and expected.I’ve needed to ‘marry,’ these parts of my personality that I’ve avoided for so long.


No one is going to give you anything and for a long time I’ve avoided ruffling feathers for the sake of peace. The truth is asking for what you want and being assertive is not a bad thing. Asking for

what you want and expect helps avoids


problems down the road.

I have always interpreted my dreams. Especially in times of stress, I’ve noticed my dreams become more vivid



to the point of me talking in my sleep.

My advice for you guys is to be open to your subconscious. It often reveals your true feelings and fears.

What’s the weirdest dream you guys had? 

Pseudoscience Practices Worth Trying

Contrary to the title these practices may be beneficial to you. Pseudoscience is defined as a collection of beliefs mistakenly based in science. A lot like a snake oil salesman or healing waters these practices are believed to be false.

But the snake oil salesman stumbled upon an anti-inflammatory potion.  My point is, sometimes we need to step outside traditional practices to find the answer.

Listed below are Nontraditional or  Pseudoscience Practices I find helpful;


Crystal healing is the belief that crystals hold properties that can

heal, and balance energy.Crystals have been a part of Native American and

Hawaiian cultures for years. Crystals can be used along with any of these recommendations below.My favorite crystals are quartz and Rose quartz.

Binaural Beats

Binaural beats is a combination of two different tones at different frequencies to create the illusion of a third frequency. Binaural beats can affect the mental and emotional state of the listener. Like ALL music!!


Meditation is a popular one. The practice of self away from the chaos of the world is beneficial.


Smudging is the burning of sage. It has been used by new age gurus and tribes

throughout history. Smudging is believed to clear the space of negative energy.

Feng Shui

Is a Chinese practice focusing on the ebb and flow of energy throughout your

living space. It is a well-known rule that clutter creates chaos. Feng Shui advocates order and simplicity to create a positive environment.

Which one is your favorite? Leave a comment below.